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mastaspammip
02 May 2011 @ 05:37 pm


so my bathroom cieling in leaking AGAIN! i called maintenance and they acted like it wasnt a big deal. they said water that comes out of the air vent is most of the time just someone upstairs who was careless with their shower curtain. that would be believeable and all if wasnt for the fact that my cieling has had 2 prior pipe bursts since august where they had to rip the entire cieling out to repair. so it seems more likely to me that they did a shity job and its leaking again. wtf i am so sick of this.

on a different note i started weight watchers online today and i actually worked out for 45 minutes! i feel good. my goal is to do that every morning 5 days a week and stick with the weight watchers. i think i am gonna stick with it this time and finally lose the weight.

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mastaspammip
01 May 2011 @ 12:47 am

i seriously have the attention span of a 2 year old. i get a job i love and now 8 months in and im bored out of my mind. i know i didnt want to do this forever but since i have no idea what i do want to do with my life i figured it would be alright. i really need to find my passion in life cause im not getting any younger thats for hella sure.

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mastaspammip
23 August 2010 @ 04:07 pm
I feel a lot better than the other day. I think lack of sleep and nerves really got to me. Today there was just a lot of training dvds and I got to run through the cash register manual. Tomorrow I'll start ringing people up, which will be helpful since I learn better with hands on stuff anyways. Everyone was really nice, but no one was really my age, hopefully since most of the employees are part time, tomorrow i'll see a whole different set of people and some younger people i might be able to be friends with.
Wow look at that, i'm being positive about something. lol
 
 
mastaspammip
20 August 2010 @ 09:07 pm
So i just moved in, i haven't even stayed a night alone yet. I was so excited to finally be moving on with my life and now i'm fucking terrified.

I haven't been that great at making friends since high school. I had a couple people burn me really badly my first year of college, and ever since it's like a put a wall up around me that other people can sense so I just dont get approached by co-workers to go out or make friends. Now i'm alone in a new city where i literally know not one soul.

I dpn't wanna sit it my empty apartment all the time and get more depressed. I've been depressed since I can remember. Now i'm sitting here kind of freaking out. What if I never truly live? Will i let go of all the crap and meet new people and get a life, literally?

I'm so scared, i don't know how to let go, i've carried around this for a long time. I don't know what to do.. or how i'm gonna change my ways..i'm terrified.
 
 
mastaspammip
07 August 2010 @ 01:28 pm
I got the job!!! I am gonna be making $2.25 more per HOUR than i do now and it's full time, with full health benefits!! I might be house poor for a couple weeks until i get me credit cards paid off but i'll actually have money to pay them! I just dont have the money to get the apartment yet and with how much i will be paying in gas until i do move, i dont know when i'll be able to afford it...
 
 
 
mastaspammip
22 July 2010 @ 07:28 pm
so  
I am STILL unable to find a full time job. GOD IT'S FRUSTRATING AS HELL!!! I hate living with my parents, my mother is driving me absolutely insane. I want to slap her, HARD. Anyone want to hire me?
 
 
mastaspammip
20 November 2009 @ 03:04 am
always been 100% team edward but after seeing new moon.. that might not be true anymore
 
 
mastaspammip
19 September 2009 @ 09:17 pm
 
 
mastaspammip
 Everything isn't so great, moving to florida was a huge mistake. My now ex-best friend and i had these plans to move in together for years, prolly since we were 14, so since i was finishing school I decided to move down here where she currently lived. We started actually planning it like a year ago.

I did everything to move down here, made all the preparations with the u-haul and everything but since she lived in the apartment complex we were getting a place in already she was supposed to get us a apartment. She never did, she had over a year to get her shit together and about a week before the actual move she is like oh damn there isn't any apartments available. Like she thought she could just go and say hey i wanna move and the complex would be like sure ok. So we were both gonna stay in her room dorm style until one was available, which would be at least a month, I said thats fine whatever because i was just excited to move.

So she flies up to Michigan and we drive the u-haul down to florida, on the way down things were tense just because of how long it took and how tired we were. We get here and walk into her current apartment and the apartment smells so bad and it looks like it had never been mopped or vacuumed EVER.. she has a dog and a cat, the stench of urine is so bad my eyes literally start to water. Instead of taking the dog outside to go to the bathroom she just lets it out on the balcony, which is now covered in prolly a couple weeks worth of poop and since she actually only lets it out on the porch like 2 times a day it pees inside all the time. Supposedly she cant afford cat litter so it is full and smells horrible. I told her i cant live like this and she gets upset because she thinks i'm trying to hurt her feelings, where in reality i am trying to explain how normal people dont live like this. I told her she needs to get rid of the dog since its 1 years old and not house trained and she threw a fit, saying she cant get rid of it cause it might be able to be house trained, i tired to explain that it took alot of time to house train an animal and obviously based on the porch situation she wasn't that involved with the pets in the first place. I also told her she was gonna have to pay so much in damages to the apartment complex, she thought she would just lose her deposit but the dog had tore up the linoleum in the bathroom and all the carpet was going to need to be replaced and she would be lucky if the pet urine didn't sink into the floor boards and she wouldn't need to pay for those too, she is looking at thousands in damages and she acted like it wasn't a problem when at the current time she cant even afford her bills without her parents help. On top of the animals everything is just dirty, dirty clothes everywhere, her bathroom looked like the shower and counter had never been cleaned, i mean this is so gross but on her bathroom counter there was a pair or bloody underwear... its was disgusting. I talked to her about it because obviously something needed to change if i was to live there, So she said she would clean on monday which is her only day off and not to worry about it, instead she sat around on her computer all day and went to her boyfriends house that night. The whole time I was there her dog was in its cage 99% of the time, it was seriously animal cruelty, I am all for loving pets but if you dont have the time or money for them, then they would be better off somewhere else. So since she wasn't making any effort at all I decided I couldn't stay there. 

My Aunt shelly offered to let me live with her for a month so i could get out of there and figure out what to do. So i told her that it would just end badly if we lived together, we would end up fighting all the time and we have to different versions of how we want to live, i didn't want to have to be her mother yelling at her to clean up all the time. She freaked out and deleted me from facebook and myspace and doesn't want anything to do with me anymore. I was trying to do the best thing for me, and try to salvage what was left of our friendship and she wont speak to me at all. She told her current roommate that I was upset cause she stayed at her boyfriends house, which had nothing to do with why i was mad, and she thinks that I shouldn't have based my decision off of the 2 days i was there and i should have given her more time to clean it up. But you can't tell me all that mess occurred in the 2 days i was there, it took a long time for it to get like that and obviously she was fine with it, proved by the fact that she made no effort in cleaning on that monday. If that was me I would have been embarrassed to let anyone in the apartment in the current situation and especially if they told me that they couldn't live that way i would have started cleaning immediately.

So yeah, moving down here hasn't turned out well, because now I have no place to live and no best friend, i have a month to find a apartment and I still need a full time job because my part time one isn't enough to live off of.. so i am really stressed and this blows...
 
 
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mastaspammip
27 June 2009 @ 10:33 am
 everything isn't so great, this was a huge mistake. I dunno if i updated you about the whole apartment hunting fiasco but I did everything to move down here made all the preparations but since renae lived in the apartment complex already she was supposed to get us a apartment. She never did, so we were both in her room dorm style until one is available, which would be at least a month, thats fine whatever. Then we get here and the apartment smells so bad and it looks like it had never been mopped or vacuumed EVER.. she has a dog and a cat, it smells like pee. instead of taking the dog outside to go to the bathroom she just lets it out on the balcony, so that is covered in poop and it pees inside all the time, supposedly she cant afford cat litter so it is full and smells horrible. I told her i cant live like this and she needs to get rid of the dog since its 1 years old and not house trained and she threw a fit, saying she cant get rid of it cause it might be able to be house trained. not to mention that everything is just dirty besides the animals, i mean this is so gross but on her bathroom counter there was a pair or bloody underwear... its disgusting. So she said she would clean on monday which is her only day off, she sat around on her computer all day instead. Aunt shelly offered to let me live with her for a month so i could get out of there. So i told renae that it would just end badly if we lived together, we would end up fighting all the time and we have to different versions of how we want to live. She freaked out and deleted me form facebook and myspace and doesn't want anything to do with me anymore. I was trying to do the best thing for me, and try to salvage what was left of our friendship and she wont speak to me at all. So yeah, moving down here hasn't turned out, because now I have no place to live and no best friend, i have a month to find a apartment and I still need a full time job because my part time one isn't enough to live off of.. so i am really stressed and this blows